Please please please don't blame my son or daughter for my weight gain.
For the last two years, people have been telling me, "But you just had a baby". Oh please, I lost the pregnancy weight within two months of having my babies from complete exhaustion. Now I did not have the luck of being able to breastfeed more than a month for various reasons with either my son or daughter, which can help with weight loss (some studies say from 500 to 1200 calories burned a day). But guess what, my kids did not force feed me hamburgers, french fries and my true love, Pizza!!!! I did this all on my own, so my little man and baby girl are officially off the hook.
I will say that age does make weight loss a little more challenging, but does not make it impossible at all. Now that I am over 40, I realize I will never look the way I did when I was 23 and vacationing in Cabo (I really did look good). But that's okay. I want to be the healthiest and best person I can be right now.
I have never been a really thin person, but I've never been a really obese person either. I'm just a larger person in general. When I first started dating my husband, I was at my "LOVE" weight. You know what I am talking about. I was thinner than normal but I was still trying to lose even more weight (like many of us). My BMI was just barely in the healthy range, but being a taller female it really is easier to hide a few pounds.
Now after a trip to the doctor a few months ago, I am in the BMI range named "obese". Ouch does that hurt. I've been in this range before, twice, and both times I was seriously depressed and about to end relationships. Well, life is different now, I do still struggle with depression but am madly in love with my husband and have a wonderful family. So, this "obese" shit is about to hit the fan (sorry for the language)!!
Wow, first time I've sworn on my blog!! I feel a little guilty, yet a little liberated.
I have reached the actualization that I need to make a drastic change. I cannot eat whatever I want, no matter how much I workout. I do not have the metabolism for it (never have, but over 40 proves it). And although I may crave and have the ability to, I cannot eat the same amount of food as my 6 foot 6 inch husband.
So with this epiphany, I have also started to reconnect with a long lost friend. Oh how I've missed her. She has far less weight to lose than me but we have both had it!! So through the wonders of Facebook instant messenger, we are checking on each other. We have a simple goal. We want to be the women that we both remember. That is not necessarily a number but a confidence in ourselves that we can and will conquer the world.
What am I doing to achieve this you might ask?
I am using the simple theory that has worked for me before, "do more, eat less". I know this sounds simple, but in real life it is far from simple. Cravings and stress eating can be very powerful things. And sometimes pizza really does make everything feel better for that moment.
First things first, am I mentally and emotionally ready to make a change? It is important that I am trying to lose weight for the right reasons, not for anyone else, but for me. Also, I went to have a wellness check with my doctor, to make sure I got the green light to go ahead with the lifestyle change and diet. I'm just not trying to look better, I am trying to be healthier and have more energy to keep up with my active family.
Second, I am using my favorite app, My Fitness Pal and sometimes Map My Walk. These two apps are wonderful to really keep you on track and also make you realize what your putting into your body. My Fitness Pal also seems to be the person who tells me what I don't want to hear, even if I need to hear it. It tells me that if you continuing eating like you did today, in five weeks you will weigh "blank". And let me tell you that is completely motivating in itself.
Lastly, it was important to me that I find a diet plan that I can stick to and honestly, something that will shake things up for me. I was afraid that if I made only small changes, it would be easy for me to fall back into my old way of viewing food. I want this to be a lifestyle change for me and my entire family. There are so many different types of diets out there: Low Carb (like the Atkins diet), Low Fat, Low Calorie, South Beach Diet or Keto Diet. There are many advantages and disadvantages to all of them. The most important part for me was researching them and deciding what was best for me.
So ..... drum roll please ....
I decided to jump on the Keto Diet craze. I originally heard about it on Good Morning America, my very favorite way to start my morning. I am naturally a cynic but actually trust the information that they provide, so when GMA says it can be a safe option for a time period, I decided to make the leap. Of course I did read up on it and talk to my doctor. It was a drastic change, but something that I thought was crazy enough for me to try. Why not right?
With the help of My Fitness Pal app, I was able to change the required Macros and follow my low calorie, high fat, low carb diet for three months. This is not the type of diet I can change to as a lifestyle change, because let's be honest, I can't live without my pizza. But for three months, I knew I could stick to almost anything.
Okay, so I have now completed the three months I committed to being on the Keto Diet (and I shockingly haven't even cheated). At this time, I do not feel like sharing where I started or how much I want to lose (weight has always been a very sensitive issue for me), but will tell you that after exactly three months, I am 37 lbs down. It feels good.
Now when I am snacking healthy and want to consume an entire pizza, I keep telling myself that I am doing this for my babies, my husband, my family. But most importantly I just want to feel good in my own skin again. I want to be around a long long time for them. I have heart disease and cancer on both sides of my family, so this is not something that I want to monkey around with at all. It is my responsibility to manage my own health.
What's next for me?
Well, my ultimate goal was to get back to my dating weight. When I started dating my husband, I truly felt good in my skin. I know I could have been thinner but I felt I had finally found a weight that I be happy in and not self conscious of. So, I know this sounds corny, but I really want to date my husband again. I don't believe you should ever stop dating your spouse, and I want to feel as good as I used to before the babies and burgers really started to pile up.
With my weight loss I am already seeing an increased level of energy. I am trying to follow "Hands Free Mama" and put down my iPhone and step away from my computer more. I am trying to play with my four kids and do more stuff with them and not be a bystander in their lives. I am becoming more of an active person in my own life. Don't get me wrong, I still do love my Candy Crush and Instagram, but I am making a conscious effort to be more present. Rachel Stafford really helped me be honest with myself about this. Thank you Hands Free Mama.
My next step is trying out the Low-Carb diet. It puts the emphasis on Protein, and even though it is low carb, you can still eat more carbs than on the Keto Diet.
The other day my husband said, "Let's be honest. This is not a diet anymore for you but a lifestyle change." I agreed and disagreed with that statement, all at the same time. When I get to a healthy weight, my plan is to use My Fitness Pal app to monitor and maintain my weight. When this happens, I will be able to eat pizza more often, in moderation, and eat more similar to my family (we are all eating healthier). Ultimately, I want this to be a lifestyle change. I want to be a good example to all of my family and prove anything is possible with hard work.
My kids, my husband, my family and I deserve to be happy and healthy. Of course looking sexy in my jeans won't hurt either.